Homeopathy X Skepticism

I’m coming on here to talk about homeopathy and skepticism. Two things that I feel truly have walked hand in hand since the beginning of homeopathic history.

In the early days of homeopathy- in the early 18th century, there was a lot of skepticism about homeopathy. The earliest practitioners of homeopathy were all medical allopathic doctors who experienced skepticism and disbelief towards homeopathy, witnessed personal miracles, and converted over to practicing homeopathy. The skepticism led the way.

To some extent I’d even say skepticism is essential to appreciating homeopathy.

Even as a practitioner, I go through phases of skepticism towards homeopathy. It truly blows my mind. I’ll alternate between feeling immense understanding towards how homeopathy works to then feeling incredulous and like “there’s no way this actually works”. And I welcome my personal homeopathic miracles as reminders of the subtlety of energy: of all that remains unseen. 

I have respect for these subtle realms and continued humility towards my own humanity.

My most recent skepticism was towards the Ascension remedies which sounded so cool I just had to buy them. I bought: major fear clear, unity, ancient awakening, soul retrieval, finding tribe, speaking truth, disintegration, a new earth, autism empathica amongst a few others. Now I don’t know much about these. I read up a bit on their sphere of influence and how they are created and still feel they are a bit foreign to me.

They’ve just been hanging out in my personal pharmacy looking really pretty without any actual usage. I have never studied them and was feeling very skeptical about their powers. 

To get current, in the past few weeks while my partner has been away for work, I have been experiencing some pretty intense night time paranoia. Basically- sun goes down, my paranoia comes out. Whispering horror movie imprints of serial killers hiding in my house ready to brutally harm me and my son amongst other horror movie imprints that are totally bonkers and terrifying. My intuition has called me several times towards the ‘major fear clear remedy’. Each time I felt it was a no… I was skeptical and I didn’t want to just remove the problem without doing the work. I felt this fear was coming up for a reason- it needed to be felt and alchemized and worked through. 

So that’s what I did. Over the course of three weeks I lost sleep, was up a lot during the night, talked extensively to the fear, growled at it like a bear, put the couch in front of the door every night, woke up and manically checked the locks to make sure no one had broken in and was hiding in the house, I mean true true anxious paranoia. Very intense. I am sober AND this experience reminded me of why people must use drugs at night- this fear is paralyzing! And very scary. 

I worked with somatic practices, talk therapy, body movement, breath work, extensive prayer, you name it. And yet the moment the sun went down suddenly I felt attacked (it felt like a psychic attack) by this paranoia. 

Coupled with some beautiful and powerful somatic practices, talking to the fear, and getting a lot of support from friends and family I finally felt it was time to take major fear clear (one of the ascension remedies). I wasn’t sure the effect it would have and despite having worked through much of this paralyzing fear I still didn’t feel on the other side of this. I was feeling overrun, exhausted, and completely depleted by this paranoia. 

Upon taking major fear clear - I experienced a sense of true expansion in my mind. Suddenly I was opening all faculties of my mental capacities and instead of feeling trapped in the ID, reptilian, fear part of my brain I suddenly had access to ALL of my mind. I experienced a clarity and connection to logical thinking that I had been unable to access before. I was able to rationalize the fear, check myself, find ease, and I experienced a great reprieve. I was able to sleep- yay! And as the fear came up- I felt I could easily talk to it and bring myself to internal knowing and peace with great ease. None of these faculties or abilities had been available before. It was magical.

I experienced a deep realisation in day two of integration with the major fear clear remedy. Upon the second night of taking the remedy (I am writing this in real time friends!!) I experienced an even more potent dissolving of this fear. I felt surprised when I noticed I had gone 10 minutes without thinking about the fear, the paranoia, the scary thoughts. I was truly wowed by this experience. WOW!

As I woke up this morning and was beginning my daily prayers and quiet time, I had the sudden thought that this remedy worked above all else because this fear was never MINE to move. It happens to be a very low vibrational energy that for some reason I attracted, thus the remedy supported that energy in me that was attracting low vibrational frequency of fear specifically of attackers, intruders, and serial killers: “horror movie imprints” as I call it. And it felt resonant as to why the somatic practices, the talk therapy, the breathe work, the prayers and commands had barely shifted the experience when these practices usually work wonders for me.

Now, my skepticism is transformed by this experience and I still feel a sense of distance from these remedies because I don’t know much about them! I’m having a curious Judas moment and I’m feeling eager to learn more.